I said in my last post that new beginnings are here to stay and that I feel like a beginner again. I suppose I need to explain a little of what I mean.
One of the things I was alluding to is just that I love to learn and I’m usually absorbed in some quest to understand or improve my ability in a topic or activity, so of course, I perpetually feel very much the beginner, but then, who wants to stagnate!
Another aspect though is deeper, it’s a rethinking of long held assumptions, many of which have shaped my life for more years than I care to remember.
Renovation of the mind
It’s easy in life to continue simply piling on more and more information, believing that in doing so our knowledge is growing; when rather than getting richer, it may be that our thinking is just getting more cluttered and entrenched.
The time comes when there needs to be a spring-clean. The fresh feeling of a home when it’s had a thorough de-cluttering and deep-clean is fantastic. The spring-clean of long held thinking doesn’t necessarily feel quite so entirely positive, though it is good.
I find myself thinking back to times when I was confident of being right in my thoughts and beliefs, but then I recall the saying…’The more I find out, the less I know.’
As some of my thinking has been discarded, new ways of looking at things are taking their place. Well, I say new ways, but they aren’t new, in fact some of them are very old, much older than some of the beliefs I’ve held, but brand spanking new to me.
Out of my depth and loving it
Apparently there is a whole world of Jesus followers out there who don’t swim in the same pool I’ve been in for decades. Now I’m out in a vast ocean of God’s grace and finding I’m out of my depth and most definitely don’t have all the answers; but I have peace which makes me sing, ‘It is well with my soul.’
There’s been a simplifying in my thinking and in my life as a whole and I feel great benefit from that.
One benefit I have discovered is that I can express myself in drawing. I find freedom and joy in it and a deep sense of togetherness with Father God. I know beauty expresses something important about God and his nature, so I’m exploring this side of myself, and we’ll see where it goes.